Free at light

 so this the first time my poem has been  put online, so please read and tell me what you think : D.

           Free at light!

Living in my world of black and grey

There’s no colour in sight

My tormentors are like shadows

Yet I feel them around me

Like leaches they sap the life out of me

The chains of depression that bound me are as dark as night

Thoughts of suicide run through my head

But I’m assured it’s a waste of time because here, there’s neither dying nor living

I ask and scream night and night for there is no day here

Will any one save me? Can any one save me?

Suddenly a white bright light penetrates my world

And the wider it becomes the more I dare to believe

And then the greyness of my sadness flees at the sight of the light

My black depression disintegrates

My tormentors are nowhere to be found

And then the ruby red light of love hits me

The sapphire blue of peace shines upon me

The warmness of the amber yellow of joy envelopes me

And the emerald green of hope fills me in ways I couldn’t have imagined

Is this a dream? I ask myself,

I know the answer is nought

Because here dreams turn to dust

And then I dare to search for the source of this beauty

But needn’t look far or long

For there he is a brilliant white light piercing my darkness and taking my pain away

Light so bright it pervades the darkest corners of my world

His crown of gems radiating the colours I newly got acquainted with

His face so bright that but for the chains holding me steadfastly

 I would have shield my eyes at the sight of him

But then his face would have been hid from me

 And there for once I was grateful for those chains that held me

Because they stopped me from letting my humanity get in the way of seeing him

Of seeing his face, a face so holy, so peaceful, so full of joy and hope, it was surreal

And as his hand stretches before me I have but one thought “can this be real?”

And then I hear a voice sweeter than the chiming of wind chimes

More melodious than a thousand orchestras put together

Yet with greater authority than the thunder

And it replies ‘you called, I answered, do you believe?’

The question so evident in his eyes that now I know

I know I believe him, I know without a doubt that he is my saviour, my friend, my master

And that he is just and true

And with more conviction that I never thought was possible I reply ‘yes I do’

Yea our hands touch, nay they collide

And I feel a hole, a seal of his love for me.

The last of my chains break off

At this moment I feel myself being transformed, my world being renewed

 My sadness becoming joy

My desolation and despair vanishing

My nights receiving light

My greys turning into colours

My blacks becoming white

And then at the sight of him, I know

Yes I just know I am free.

Free at light!

                             The end.